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I’m doing the link up with Shasta and Megan again. Hey, at least I get a post in and its not about school, counting calories or my job search. All of which I’m consumed with to the point of exhaustion.

So here we go.

1. favorite place you’ve traveled

I’ve travelled quite a bit, but no where amazing like Thailand. I really loved San Francisco in a “I would never want to live here” kind of way. Liked Toronto. New York is great. I used to go to Palm Beach and Naples a lot and that was fun. I think my favorite place on earth is Savannah. I would live in Savannah if I could. It’s just one of those places I that if I had to stay forever it would be totally ok.

2. where would you want to go if you could have a paid ticket and hotel

Paris. Period. The end.

3. if you have a trip planned, where are you going?

Asheville x 2, Nashville and probably Destin soon. And maybe back to Alabama.

All South all the time.

4.Were you an honor roll student in school?

Sometimes, sometimes not. It depended how bored I was that semester. I was one of those kids that got called into the principal’s office wanting to know why I had 3 A’s, a C and an F. My response was generally I hate the class and the teacher. And I swear I will do better which was just me skating by on a C.

5. what was your major in college

I double majored in marketing and management.

6. Ever go to camp?

Tennis camp. Day camp. No outdoor camp with crafts and lakes and animals. All things I hated as a child and continue to have no interest in to this day. Like I say about running, I prefer a treadmill because of climate control and no sun. MUST PROTECT MY SKIN FROM THE EVIL SUN.

7. favorite tv show of all time

The Wire. Best show ever made. But for girly type shows I like Buffy the Vampire Slayer back in the day.

8. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?

I only got grounded once and it was for something I didn’t do. My dad sometimes road in on a broom and would fly off the handle about something stupid. I was grounded for a month. It was so dumb. I was perfect in high school because my parents kept a tight leash on me. It was college when everything went down hill.

9. What was your childhood nickname?

Didn’t have one from my parents. But to tell you how kids can be mean a group of boys starting calling me Lesby in third grade and I had no idea what it meant. They called me that till I switched schools. To this day it stings a bit.

10. what would your dream job be?

I’m trying to switch to my dream job now. It’s the thing I wanted to do in undergrad and has never gone away. I want to be a consultant. Either in tech for healthcare or retail. I like brand consulting as well. It’s never just one thing with me. I want to work for Accenture, Deloitte, McKinsey, etc. You get the idea.

The only other thing that would be I could die now would be to work styling or PR for a major fashion house a la @OscarPRGirl. I would die. But I prefer the puzzles of consulting.

Last year when I moved back from Macon I tweeted about all the stuff I was getting rid of and how I could probably just get rid of everything except my clothes, my laptop and add an ipad. Now, 11 months later, I’m moving again and that is all I’m taking. The ipad has been added because I have one for school. Technically, I’m not going far. I’m going to temporarily live with a friend. She wins because I can help her with all her house projects and I win because I don’t have to get a new lease till the end of the semester. And I have some job interviews upcoming that would take me to other parts of the metro area if I got any of them. Signing a lease was just not something I wanted to do right now.

The last bit of stuff I have is going into storage. I had wanted to sell the bedroom furniture but got talked out of it. I got rid of most of my books except the important ones and then I have a few keepsakes and some expensive kitchen items. I have very little in the form of stuff anymore. I was talking to one of my internet friends last night via twitter DM about stuff and being satisfied with what you have. I used to have a lot of stuff. I had clothes, books, kitchen items, dvds, etc. coming out of ears. I was attached to so much of it. I had furniture and anything I could possibly want. I wouldn’t get rid of anything because I would say, “No, I might need it.” And that day never came. Over the last few years I have slowly weaned myself off of stuff. I sold it or donated it. I wanted to see what I actually used and even more so what I actually LIKED. A lot of it I didn’t even like.

Stuff is fun. Stuff is pretty. Stuff makes you feel good. I had a shopping addiction when I was married. My sister put it best when she said I wasn’t getting what I needed at home so I went shopping to feel better. Now I still love my YSL bags and a good pair of J Brand jeans. The change that I was looking for and did occur was finally coming to terms with not needing the stuff to make me happy. Shopping and stuff was another major addiction for me to overcome. And to be honest, it has been the hardest one to deal with.

I’m good at selling stuff to other people. I know how to get in your brain and make you justify it. As a society we crave stuff. It makes us feel like we belong. I write papers in grad school about how to get customers to buy more stuff. Ugh, ALWAYS IN MY FACE. For me to no longer rely on it and to have a different comfort zone of about stuff and what I find acceptable it is a weird place to be in and it creeps people out.

Stuff is a choice. Do you want to look like everyone else and wear TB shoes and carry an LV Neverfull? Or do you want to wear a mix of designers and off brands that don’t make you look like a Stepford Wife? I will say its been fun to redo my clothes since I lost weight. I’ve gotten to change everything and be different on the outside as well as the inside. But its been in moderation. I have wondered if I would ever go back to buying a lot of stuff like before. Before I made 6 figures, now I don’t. That day will come again. But I don’t think the stuff will. I hope not at least. I think and feel the stuff is just a constant battle like anything else. Choosing to eat healthy, choosing to not be a drug addict, choosing to not be an alcoholic. I choose to be free of all of it.

*as always these are my opinions, thoughts, feelings and experiences. i’m not perfect and fall off the wagon sometimes. i reserve the right to change again.*

I got the email earlier today that my loans for grad school have gone thru. No one likes to take on loans but these are a necessary evil. Getting my MBA has been a 10 year dream of mine and it is finally happening. Lots of work and studying, but it going to be totally worth it.

I am in a prep class this week to prepare for the first accounting class. I took accounting in undergrad but have a lot of anxiety about it and this is already helping. Hopefully.

Also, I have anxiety about grades because in undergrad I did as little as possible to graduate. I don’t have a clear memory of undergrad anyway but this time my goal is to come out at the top. In undergrad I did not buy the books half the time and still passed so who knows what I could have done if I actually made an effort. My mom still rants about this fact.

Anyway, my next main goal is to finish my weight loss. My mom saw me the other day and thought I did not need to loose any more weight. This is ridiculous. I have not reached a size 4 yet and still have some items in my closet that I have hung on to thru the years that I still can’t comfortably wear. So I will continue on the WW train and make this happen.

Next, I am waiting to hear back about some fun employment. Something part time that is fun, where I don’t have to be on call for the first time in my adult life and where I can just focus on school. Hopefully, I don’t have to start looking for full time till the beginning of next year.

I have a new idea about a large company I might want to work for. A company that I have not thought of before but I love their product and their US headquarters is in Atlanta. My boyfriend and mother both thought this idea was rather ingenious so we will see. I am going to have my meeting with the career counselors before I start pursuing any job including this possibility. I don’t want to make another mistake.

Going to my gym tonight for the first time before I got sick. Scary. I have lost so much strength in the past month. Woof! is an understatement. But spinning here I come.

It’s so effing hot I could die. I hate the sun.

Finally, a fashion quandry. I was going to get the green DVF Maja dress when it first came out. I love(d) it. But then Duchess Catherine has worn it twice. Even though I love it I feel like I can’t get it because it is so recognizable now. And no matter how much I love following Duchess Catherine I am really uninterested for people to think I am copying her. Total white girl problem but still its an issue!

I am looking forward to my friend’s baby’s first birthday party. One, because I love her and her baby. Two, because it will be at her mom’s house which is so fabulously decorated I could DIE (again). So delicious.

Anyway, that’s my latest stream of consciousness.

Mostly just working. I have a massive territory so I am gone by 7 am almost every day and don’t get back till between 6 and 7 at night. Every day. That in and of itself is a change. But I love talking to people and that makes up for it.

I am just going to list out this random stuff that has occurred because some of it is kind of funny.

1. Helped move a casket with a murder victim in it. He was killed “Elin Woods-style” with a 9 iron to the head.

2. I was asked out to lunch the first time I attended my new church.

3. I volunteered for Habitat for Humanity.

4. Subsequently, was asked “Can I walk you to your car?” when leaving said volunteer project.

5. My apartment still looks like a bomb went off in it. I literally don’t feel like dealing with it yet. And I am a neat freak so this is unexplainable.

6. I went out for Cinco de Mayo. Got in all kinds of trouble. I have the skinned knees to prove it.

7. Drank Pabst out of a styrofoam cup while watching a tennis tournament at the country club.

8. Realized how glad I am to have moved from Atlanta.

9. It is nice to feel appreciated and that people like me. Unlike Atlanta, where let’s just say it was the complete opposite and I just felt used.

10. I was in a prep room with a dead body being worked on.

11. I have 3 books I am reading right now. Need to finish all of them.

12. I have 10 lbs to go to my goal weight.

13. The life stories I have heard in this short time are amazing and profound and I appreciate the fact that people are willing to tell them to me.

14. Met some great ladies at the year end meeting for Junior League of Macon.

15. Every day I thank God for a second chance and a different outlook on life.

I have started a couple of posts but I haven’t finished them because I am afraid people might find them pretentious or preachy. But I am working on that. It is just stuff myself or others have experienced and the thoughts I have about them. So, I will keep working on them and when I do post them please let me know what you think.